There are so many things that are awesome about God. People often talk about His creative power as an amazing thing, and I suppose it is. Last week I saw a video where the author was again telling about the vastness of the universe, the uncontrollability of the weather and the intricacies of the human body. For some reason, this time, it felt like Isaiah in the cave with the wind and the earthquake and the fire (I Kings 19)...All were amazing, but the Lord was not in them and I was not impressed.
Later that night, as I laid myself down to sleep, there came a still small thought--not a voice, per se, as the thought came fully formed without the need of words. When God created us in His image, he chose to make us eternal like He is. The amazing thought was that He loves us so much that He could not bear to ever be parted from us. I remembered what a heartache it was to lose my first dog, Sara, even though she was old and it was time for her to go. I remembered as a child losing my Grandfather that I loved and the ache of His passing is just as real today, 37 years later. I still ache for the 6 children I lost before they were even born and I long for the day I will see them again because I miss them so much.
It may be that when He breathed life into Adam, that life could be nothing but eternal, but it is also true that as much as loss hurts us, it infinately hurts the infinite heart of God. Indeed, it was worth the sacrifice of His own Son to reconcile us eternally to Himself.
A few days later, my friend Miki, pointed out that if that is the case, then the rejection He faces from those who choose themselves over Him must also be immense. He obviously prefers us to come to Him willingly over forcing us to do so, though that may also be a consequence of being made in His image. It must mean that to love infinately means the risk of love lost infinately as well, and yet He believes it is worth it.