I don't know what to write today...
Yesterday was not the first time that I have sat awaiting the Lord. There have been days that all I knew was that His presence was real and at rest, but that I was to await His priorities. It is a still feeling. A calmness ensues; an eager expectancy that awaits His work. It is accompanied by another understanding--a deep, disquiet about moving out of the position He has placed me.
This understanding has come at a great cost. Far too many times, I have disregarded His direction to my great dismay. The consequences have been dire. When I act during the time I should be waiting, it is only because I don't fully trust God to act and that is disaster--just ask Sarah and Abraham.
The acronym PUSH is so appropriate--Pray Until Something Happens. My grandmother used to tell us, "Don't move anything you haven't first moved with prayer." If nothing else, as we try to move the world back to something upright before Him, it is His job to align us in the position that will be the most effective. A boulder resting at the top of a hill will move with only a small push if it comes from the right position. Pushing it sideways won't do much and it might be hard to find just the right place on a very large boulder. Within the process of waiting and praying, I often find that my prayers dramatically change. What I first asked for would have been wholly inappropriate, but God reordered my prayers during the time I waited.
Wait upon the Lord...He is worth the wait.